Monday, December 21, 2015

Merry Moose Knuckle Monday!!

I am gonna bet there will be some Xmas morning sightings that could be captured by new gifts of phones and cameras. 

It would make this CaMel's Birthday/Xmas pretty damn special to see everyone was able to enjoy the THRILL of the Magic MOOSE KNUCKLE.

So your mission should you choose to accept is to 
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE keep a close eye out and be ready to capture a rare Xmas Knuckle!

Sunday, December 20, 2015

When do I make people afraid of me?

I was reading through this "18 Questions Everyone's Too Afraid to Ask" and came across this question that made me think. 

"When do I make people afraid of me?"
The comment on the bottom read:
 "All of us have more power than we think—whether it's over an employee, a spouse, a friend or our kids. How do you use it?"

I am very aware of my ability to intimidate folks. 

I am a mother. 
 I have used fear to initiate chores, better behavior, school attendance. I knew it was not the correct manner to accomplish things but I was never taught the skills to cope any differently. 

There are certainly times I present myself in a way that will intentionally keep people at bay. 
Other times it is purely their perception of the 'cover' they see.  

So that leads me to ponder what fear is?

I believe fear is fueled by assumption
I hear my dad's voice saying over and over "assuming makes an ass out of you and me". 
He was right. 

We assume that due to our actions/others actions /situation that something bad/uncomfortable/scary will occur.

 Naturally we don't want to be in that kind of situation so we allow fear to keep us from moving forward. 

I don't feel I have ever given anyone a reason to 'fear' me due to my actions.

 I am well aware that some 'fear' me due to their own assumptions. 

When people bring harm into my bubble there are ample reactive actions I have available to me. 
I believe the only way to protect myself, is to remove myself  from the person/situations/place. 

In the past using this measure of self preservation has occasionally instilled fear into those who created the situation. 

That made me uncomfortable as I know that feeling fear gives what/who you are afraid of  'power' over you, your thoughts and actions.

I don't EVER want that kind of 'power'.
 Its not healthy

My own experiences have taught me that spending so much energy on something you have no control over means you are not spending that energy on what truly matters. 

Your own self growth.

I am selfish.

The 'powers' I do have guide me through the challenges of being a good huMan so I can love myself. A struggle on the best of days! 

  I am worthy and with that knowledge I am able to feel and share love with others.
Mindful that the cycle begins again. 

As with love comes risk and with risk comes fear...
With communication comes better understanding.  
With understanding comes compassion.
With compassion comes love.
With love... comes peace.

Those thoughts of peace, if only inner, take all my fears away! 


In using myself as an example I wanted to show just how our fears cloud our judgment.

Fears make people hostile, They stop knowledge from being absorbed, they can replace reality and leave us lost.

Fears start wars, stop positive movement and end lives.

Our fears hold more power than necessary and we need to try to put them into perspective

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

My pet Dragon!

I am a VIVID, Lucid dreamer and last night in my dream I had a 'pet' 'elf' dragon and he was the light of the world where I lived. He was shot by some people and passed..

The days after his death people showed their respect by making their curtains a triangle to represent his pointy ears. When I looked across the land it warmed my heart to see all the love and support. in the windows.

The moral of this dream is no matter how alone we may feel there are places we can go where you can find warmth and empathy to sooth your soul.

It is within that knowledge I found my AWW for the day.